One more to go...

So I was scheduled to take two anesthesia exams on Thursday, a written and a clinical. The written has to be passed BEFORE you can take the clinical. I failed the written exam, which meant I did not get the chance to take the clinical. I was EXTREMELY blessed to be able to get on the computer right away, and try to find a testing center nearby to retake it, so I wouldn't have to fly to Washington, or New Mexico or something. There was one in Orem, but the deadline for application had passed. There were still spots available, so I called the testing agency, and the lady said if I put my application in by 1:30 I could sign up for the exam. So I did. And I now have an email confirmation. This will mean I take the exam the weekend after graduation in April. A setback yes, but since the results for this exam are instantaneous, and I won't have my license processed by then anyway, it really won't be a big deal. The $475 to retake it? Kind of a big deal. Upon receiving my exam failure paper I was....shocked, but not surprised. It was a REALLY hard exam, and I know the other girls, although relieved to have passed themselves, will definitely agree with me. A couple other girls didn't pass as well, which shouldn't make me feel any better...but it does. And it makes me grateful that I will have a study group as well. It was a hard exam. I keep telling myself that. It was more than a little rough though. I didn't cry at the school, but at soon as I told Sterling I started bawling. And then continued to have nervous breakdowns for the next day and a half. Sterling even called me at work the next afternoon and told me that if I needed to have any more "anesthesia breakdown" another girl had shown up at work, and he could come home if I needed him too. I love that man. I think its just because I am so used to being the top of everything scholastically, it shook me quite a bit. But I'm okay now, I have another date scheduled, and it really will be fine.

I took my clinical dental hygiene exam two days later, on Saturday. My patient (who I had called THREE TIMES the day before) showed up only minutes after I got there at 6:50 in the morning! Bless her heart! Prof. A who is absolutely AMAZING, came and did my anesthesia for me. I called her the day before, and telling her I failed my anesthesia exam was like telling my mother all over again. But she was so kind about it, and I am so thankful to her. Everything for my dental hygiene clinical went really smooth. My patient didn't qualify on her first submission, but she did on her second...which basically means that I had to do four extra teeth, and I got a four point reduction...but it really was okay. The anesthesia was fabulous(she's a pretty jumpy patient) and I felt like I had the time I needed, the paperwork went WAY EASIER than mockboards, and all in all, I really felt good about it. I find out if my feelings are justified in a couple weeks. Lets just hope, cause this was the REALLY expensive and difficult exam, cause I had to find a patient and everything.

Now I have one more exam to go...on Wednesday. I don't know who will be more relieved, me, or Sterling. He thinks the program is "sucking all the life and happiness out of me and leaving me a little, hollow, shell of a man". He calls me a man sometimes. Not sure what I think about that. Haahaa. He has been an absolute angel through all of this. I, on the other hand, have been WAY more emotional than usual-I surprise even myself, cause I am usually so emotionally STABLE. If waffles don't turn out, I cry. If I lose something, I cry. If he looks at me funny, I cry. Haahaa--actually I said that because I watched Wyatt's girls last night, and so he fed me dinner, and after dinner Lindsay Ann was bathing the girls and I could hear this wailing from the tub...and I asked Lindsay Ann what was wrong with Hailey and she said "Cassidy looked at her funny." Haahaa. So funny.

So I know this has been a long saga, and probably nobody really read all of it, but lets just say, having all of these tests in one week was the worst idea anyone ever had, I am sad I didn't pass anesthesia, but relieved to have another month to study, and I am SO HAPPY for all the warm, summer days that are coming up when I don't have to be in school and studying and taking tests. It'll happen someday. I can do it. I went to a marrieds fireside tonight (by myself, sterling was at work) and the speaker said "There's some things I just can't do anything about, and being ugly's one of them." But education is something I can do something about...and someday this semester will just seem like a little bump in the road(thanks Shaylee's mom for putting it into perspective). Now. To study. One more exam this week.